I've noticed a pattern emerging in the last number of weeks.
As I sense disinterest or a sense of dread, I try to consider who is asking or who will benefit or who is really the focus of my frustration.
I, for example, don't want to go somewhere. That's my immediate reaction.
I'd rather nap or Netflix or read.
But, for example, I sense my bride would really like for me to go.
I therefore decide that I want to go.
My attitude adjusts and I almost every time thus far, I really have a blast.
Another example: I see something I don't want to do. I try to look for it, I notice it. I ask the Holy Spirit to give me a heads up.
The Holy Spirit isn't a shouter. His style isn't what my old friend Joegie described as loudership.
I see a little something I missed in a recent cleaning project: there is a choice. Obviously, ignore it. Let it be someone else's problem. Act like you never even saw it!
Or elbow grease it and bless someone.
Bathrooms are a good place to start.
I haven't realized the depths of my elaborate and mostly justifying selfish self-centerednesses.
i read recently that to justify is a building term: It is what they do when something is crooked.
Jesus said in Matthew 6:34 sufficient to the day is the trouble thereof and the word trouble is this interesting Greek word that means essentially "evil habit of mind".
He also said greater love has no man than this, then that he lay down his life for his friend.
The word life there is psuche, where we get psychology.
Another way of reading it would be Greater love has no man than this: then that he lay down what he thinks in preference of another.
I've been recognizing as I've been asking to see what some of these little evil habits of thought are and they're not surface-level obviously evil.
They're boring, built-up-by-toleration-over-time evil. And therefore they are rough to spot without His watchful guidance.
They add up to me not loving others as much as I really just want things my way.
Practical reentance means to me if it matters to you, it matters to me: Rethink.
A divine benefit, of course, is you really feel good about learning to love those you love in the ways that matter to them.